There’s nothing like putting on clean undies. The optimal situation is clean undies and clean clothes on top of the clean undies… but realistically speaking… sometimes it’s day two on the blue jeans. So maybe not all of my clothes are squeaky clean, however, the undies always are. Have you ever noticed how grimy you feel wearing the same undies for more than 24 hours at a time? It feels like week old Chinese food dunked in sewer water. It’s awful. The worst part about dirty undies is that it makes the rest of you feel dirty, even if you aren’t all that unclean. Undies are the foundation for our clothing choices. Undies are the first thing we put on in the morning. Undies are of absolute importance, unless you prefer to go without them, which, for all intents and purposes, is not where this conversation is heading.
On a seemingly un-related note, I hate going to confession. I can count on one hand the amount of times I have ever been. The first time I felt horrible after and like the priest could care less about my silly little problems, even though it took me over a month and a half to muster up the courage to go in the first place. The second time was amazing… the priest was very open and listened intently and was very understanding and even offered me solutions which extended beyond a couple “Hail Marys.” The third time, it wasn’t awful, but I didn’t walk out on Cloud Nine either. For the most part, my experiences with confession haven’t exactly been stellar ones.
However, today I had an epiphany in the bathroom. I hopped out of an exceptionally delicious shower and was feeling great all over in my clean undies and clean clothes when I realized… a ha! So this is what reconciliation is supposed to be like! I have always struggled with the concept of confession to a priest for a long time. No matter how many times anyone has ever tried to explain it to me, I’ve never understood the need to have a priest intercede for me and the Big Mac Upstairs… I always figured I could just go straight to Jesus myself. After all, Jesus said Himself… I’m the Son, God is my Father, the only path through to the Father is through the Son. Get it? I got it. But sometimes I don’t go straight to God. Sometimes I skirt around the issue. Sometimes I don’t actually confess what needs confessing. And sometimes I just need something more… I need something physical… I need a hot shower of absolution with the soap of contrition. And I need my clean undies. I need to *know* that my soul has been purified. Otherwise, for all I know… I’m still sitting in year-old sin. And who wants that? If day-old undies make me feel gross, it’s no wonder I feel so passionless, so apathetic, so not myself sometimes. I’ve got a kink in my soul. I’ve got some dirty undies on my soul that need changing.
When I wear clean undies, I feel clean all over. I feel like I’m ready to start my day. I feel like I don’t smell all that bad. The best way to start building anything is with a firm foundation, and the best way to assemble a great looking outfit for the day is with clean undies. The same goes for your soul. If there is something troubling you, that something is going to gnaw on you and affect everything you do, from how you treat others to how much time you give for yourself. Going to confession is your chance to take a shower and put on some clean undies. You know you’ll feel a lot better when you do it, and you know that you can do it as often as you want or need to.
So my challenge to you for the week is this: go to confession. If that’s too big of a step for you, take some time at the end of the day or at the end of the week and reflect how your day or week has been. Really be critical of yourself. Take your actions to heart. Learn from your experiences. Try a better way. It can’t hurt.